Archive for May, 2008
Right Now
Posted by Bloggylife in thoughts on May 29, 2008

Assuming that the airplane actually took off on time, I am currently on the plane. Not blogging from there ;P but had my post options this way
– good new feature in blogger -
How long has it been since I last boarded a plane, hmmmm, I guess over 6 years maybe … let me put it this way, my last passport was renewed without actually using it ;P Isn’t there a fine for that
I have all these plans of what to do once I get there with my big brother, I am hoping not to forget to attend the course I am sent to attend ;P that will make a lot of people NOT happy – devilish grin -
Did only minor packing, I got a good hilarious advice from my friend on packing, which did me good, she said, imagine yourself as you just woke up naked what would you need from there to getting fully dressed … this is just a start point ;P
Yeah, I am off to Dubai where the weather is without a doubt, terrible, humid offfff, but never mind, I don’t mind at all
I’ll see what I’ll do once I wakeup and start planning around my course days and times ;P
So True
Posted by Bloggylife in funny, thoughts on May 29, 2008

Funny how people exchange data between each other, normally in an email server limitations are forced, like the size of attachment you can send and receive, the size of the email box, types of files you receive and others …
The Internet is slow, not in a normal time, you check the activities and since you don’t have any restriction on your email server, don’t be surprised if you find an outgoing email with attachment size 100MB, some people are insane … and if you tell them of the restrictions they believe you are doing that on purpose to make their lives harder … Please, even if crazy us allow such a thing, other sensible ends won’t!!! But listening is one thing they ain’t doing ;P

This one is just so darn FUNNY … because that’s what I stop myself from doing when dealing with Vista on my laptop ;P Just seeing this picture, makes me smile … I’m thinking: He must have Vista on it
Life Thoughts
Posted by Bloggylife in thoughts on May 27, 2008
Most of the things that happen in life … I don’t immediately get
Like why good things happen to bad people and why bad things happen to good people
Aside from the fact that if GOD loves someone, he’ll test them and their faith
Especially in this world of today, you get disconnected from the religious part so easily and get deeply involved in the materialistic world where everything is measured and tangible rather than sensed, felt and believed in.
A goal you had and pursued, maybe you didn’t give it your all and maybe you did, both ways, you failed … the pain of failure is to me lasts longer than the joy of success, even if it doesn’t last longer but the amount of energy you spend to get your faith in yourself and “you can do it” drive, takes a while
A new phase in your life, you are ready and prepared, did everything by the book and yet life disappoints you
The question here is it truly life or this time and this place and at this moment, this was not meant to be, surprisingly if you took a broader view you’ll understand but since you are living the moment and its dragging you down into the darkness of misunderstanding and not getting it, it’ll take you time to overcome and be yourself again
Why did this happen … seems a simple question and yet you won’t find an answer to that easily
Faith and Courage, for you to pick yourself up and do the necessary and leave the rest in GOD’s hand and your strong belief that whatever happens is the best for you and maybe someday you’ll come to understand some of the things that you didn’t through your journey in this life and if you never did, it’s OK
Take a moment, break down and let it all out, we are merely human beings, trying to get it all, then look around for family and friends and if you couldn’t find any you know who to turn to, because no matter how often you forget or neglect him, he is always there for you, take a moment, let it all out and pray to him to GOD
Little Miss Stubborn
Posted by Bloggylife in personal, thoughts on May 27, 2008
Being stubborn … is a two way street …
In my professional life, I believe it is doing me good … I’m stubborn enough to not back away easily, I get the job done, find a solution or workaround, I challenge myself, I exclude both worlds, home and work, even in university and our KODAK moments -Rania knows about these-, the project has to be completed perfectly …
In my personal life, it is doing more harm and actually depends on the person in front of me, if they are as stubborn as I am, then we’ll never reach middle ground whereas if they weren’t I tend to forget everything and let then have their way!!! I just realized this lately … OK, even if only in the heated moment … if it possible to visualize it, my head turns to a solid stone … thankfully, it doesn’t overwhelm me … after sometime and a cooling period .. I get back to my senses … the cooling period takes time … and most of
The times I realize it wasn’t worth it … or life has its way to clear things up …
Though sometimes being stubborn … always leads me to taking the hard way when it is perfectly fine to take the easy one … I wonder how life would be for me if I was a little less stubborn …

I remember those stories, Mr. Happy, Grumpy, Lazy … reading them as a child … I really did enjoy them ;P
Not Enough
Posted by Bloggylife in personal on May 27, 2008
I didn’t have to take my little brother to school today, final exams will start next week
I couldn’t get out of bed, I woke 6.30 am turned off the alarm and went back to sleep and then woke up 7.30 am, I’m late … grabbed anything in front of me and went to work with the hugest headache ever!
Don’t know what’s wrong with me these days, I find it really hard to wake up, as soon as my head hits the pillow, I fall into this deep sleep, I am so heavy and sleepy that I wake up finding marks on my arms and face of the bed sheets and pillows!!
Even for the Fajer, I need at least an hour to comprehend that the alarm went off and I need to get up and pray and then hit the pillows again not to forget all the drooling that happens
Usually when I am tired from the week, I substitute the lack of sleeping in the weekend, but this ain’t working, it is taking my body a rather long time to rest
I hope the upcoming days will be better … meanwhile … another shot of caffeine is required
eMule in Vista
Posted by Bloggylife in troubleshooting, windows on May 24, 2008
I use eMule to download music, movies, novels, etc. I think I tried someother peer-to-peer but didn’t quite figure out how to use it, so I quit.
I download eMule on my Vista from HELL and when it came to the port configuration something was blocking it, either my personal Norton firewall or my new router.
Again, even managing the new Norton is quite hectic, I tried many configuration and still no eMule communication and I configured my ports on my router but still it didn’t solve the problem
I momentarily switched off my personal firewall to make sure if it is a firewall problem only or router, still the problem persisted so I assumed it is from the router
Each router has a different naming, mine was to configure my machine in the DMZ zone and open the ports in a different section. In my old router, all I had to do was under port forwarding, anyway the communication part was solved
When running the program it gives you several errors regarding creating a secure identity, folders, etc. as an anxious user skip skip skip
I searched what I needed in eMule and when clicking on the file to download it doesn’t!!! Checking the logs, eMule couldn’t create the necessary files to download what I need.
The thing is, two folders are created in the programs folder, temp: for temporary parts of your download selection and download: for when all the parts are finished to put together and place in that folder
In Vista when creating a folder under programs, all the confirmation popups come to live, are you sure??? So it was a permission control problem, eMule by Vista isn’t allowed to create anything, so I shifted the files under my documents assuming that would solve the problem, it didn’t!!! I searched in Vista for something to configure eMule as a trusted application, to have admin privilages but couldn’t find it, so my only source is to Google the thing …. but now I have errands to run so this battle with continue another time …
Someone tell me a good thing about Vista, it is driving me crazy!!!!
Update:
OK placing your IP in the DMZ doesn’t need for you to open ports, apparently all incoming to that zone is allowed, you don’t have to specify the ports. That is my router’s configuration.
Update 2:
I tried moving the folders around under My Documents, but then a linking problem occurred. So I had to eventually configure something that may appear to others as insecure, so what xp didn’t have it and I never had a problem, I disabled the account control, no more run as administrator …
Control Panel -> User Account -> Turn User Account Control on or off -> uncheck the UAC box
You’ll have to restart after this. Now you can install the application and it can create and write whatever it wants without bothering you
Personal Thoughts
Posted by Bloggylife in personal on May 23, 2008
I even surprise myself
I am emotionally unstable, I’m so angry and pissed off and nothing in this world will make me think twice about what I am going to do or how I am going to act … or that is what I like to believe
I gave up long time ago of having a normal relationship with them, everytime I give it a chance, I end up dis-appointed and cursing the moment that I thought this is how it should be
the conflict of life ain’t worth it with thinking about the after life and GOD
I shut off myself completely and back away
All this load I carry around
And then a simple conversation, a few tears here and there and I am thinking maybe I should give them a chance and life is truly not worth it and the voice deep down within me that keeps screaming how many times do you give them chances seems to fade away in the background and I know I may be doing a huge mistake and I’ll curse myself later but I hope that GOD will bless me for this
And I think to myself, truly woman you call yourself mad, I mean I didn’t imagine all this negative feelings I have will vanish, even if momentarily, just because of a simple conversation
Am I full of bullshit, walking around, pretending I’m this tough person, who gave up long time ago and won’t give another trillion chance but when the real moment comes I soften and say it doesn’t sound that hard …
What can I do … except listen to my stupid annoying concious just one more time …
Car Wash
Posted by Bloggylife in personal, work on May 23, 2008
After a couple of days on my new job, this cleaning guy comes and asks if I wanted my car washed so on the spot I said OK without actually thinking about it.
Few days past and he didn’t wash my car and then it hit me, maybe I should pay him, this service isn’t free, how would I know, I thought it was part of his job, clean the premises and employees cars
A couple of weeks passed and at home we already have a guy doing our garden and cleaning the cars -once in a full moon-, so when I see the guy at work, I tell him ‘did you clean my car’, he said ‘No’, so I tell him not to do it then.
The next day as I left work, I see my car kinda shiny, most probably my imagination, the day after, my tires still have soap on them and the day after somebody pulled out my window wipers
At the end of the week I see him and ask him ‘Did you clean my car, I told you not to’, he said ‘you say my cleaning isn’t good’
عاد اهني كسر خاطري
I offended his pride, I told him, it is not about your cleaning, it’s just we have someone cleaning our cars at home and I won’t be needing your services and I left it at that after giving him money in return for his cleaning
He didn’t clean my car, until weeks after and I saw him cleaning the car beside mine and mine is clean too, so I told him did you clean my car ?? He said yes it was dirty, I’m like I told you not to clean it!!!
And every now and then I sometimes see him existing the parking quickly and my car clean
I mean what is this, غصب, does he want to forcefully change my mind, this week as I left work late and doing my zombie walk to the car, I notice my sparkly car and I think, he did it again, and I look around to spot him, but of course it’s late he went home and I think to myself, maybe this is GOD’s way to say thank you and job well done … maybe … ;D
IT Thoughts
Posted by Bloggylife in technology, thoughts on May 22, 2008
Users at work experience different browsing speeds throughout the day. In the morning they notice it to be fast and around noon it becomes rather slow. So they start calling in.
Let us assume the bandwidth is the same, but in the morning employees are still arriving, so fewer people are using the Internet and therefore more speed is available but around noon after people have prayed and ate lunch, they sit down and check their emails and do some youtubing so the Internet is used heavily thus the speed of your Internet responses is slower.
I always wonder how to verify the speed that the ISP promised
So they say you have 512K or 1M, you can never actually reach that high, you can check through your DSL router but truly do you feel that speed, especially when downloading…
well downloading depends on so many things, your PC, your link, other Internet activities on your PC, the server you are downloading from, how many requests is it processing at the time, etc.
There are test sites, but it is not a 100% correct estimate, first maybe your ISP prioritizes the traffic to such sites, so the result isn’t reliable. Second, many people may be using these sites at that moment so servicing your requests takes time and it may give you a lower estimate of your actual speed. When using these sites, you are always requested to closeoff any other application or service that may be using your Internet
Also, how much bandwidth can one ISP handle, to reach outside Kuwait you have to go through their links connecting to KSA, UAE, I am not sure about other countries, and I believe all are using fiber links, no satellite, I guess because it is more expensive. Let us assume that to reach outside Kuwait they have 10GB link only, so the sum of all the Internet offered services shouldn’t exceed that limit but that is not the case.
If you want to think on a smaller scale, each area telephone lines is connected to a telephone exchange centre, the ISP to that centre has a pipe of some speed let us assume (x), as users whose homes are connected to that exchange, subscribe to that ISP Internet services, speed is handed out to them, you may think that the total speed of all consumers should be less or equal to (x) but that isn’t the case, because the ISP assumes that not all of them will utilize the full speed at once, so the total speed promised to all subscribers will actually exceed (x).
You can feel this throughout the day, if you connect in the morning, different from night time, different from weekdays and weekends. If you are always doing the same Internet activity, you shouldn’t notice the difference but because your external speed to the world varies throughout the day, that is how you notice. There are appliances that help prioritize services over others, even IPs, I’m not sure if ISP prioritize some customers over others
Regular users don’t really care much about the actual speed, all they care about is the tolerable manner of Internet performance, so if someone is used to dial-up everything else is WOW to them, and as you go up, the expectations get higher, so if you work in a company, who processes over fiber link for example, dial-up at home won’t do it for you, so you choose DSL at higher speed
As to how to verify the actual speed and is it consistent. Well the ISP has to provide their speed supporting all the way to their ISP, how many users subscribed with them to your telephone exchange, etc
Please keep in mind these are my IT conclusions, so if anything here is incorrect, feel free to correct me
Movies Review
Posted by Bloggylife in entertainment on May 22, 2008
I have been to cinemas quite frequently lately, I went to three movies. Two sucked big time, and it wasn’t up to me, my friend likes Egyptian movies and since I don’t go out with her that much, I’ll the fact that I hate that type of movies slide.
The Egyptian movie, which I can’t even remember the name, was about a drug dealer’s son becoming one himself after watching his dad killed by the police. A note to the movie makers, take a hint from the world wide movie production, the movie was unbelievable, I couldn’t believe my ears when people praised it!!! Wallah when the criminal lead guy wants to kill him, pathetic, I even told my friend the best way to kill him and the opportunities he had and how the supposedly mole person escaped of course he’s going to escape this way, didn’t he see that coming!!! I just was glad I ordered my caramel pop corn and was eating and wondering when the crappy movie was going to be over
Again with the same friend, since it was half price cinema day, we decided to go. I told her pleeeeeease no more Egyptian, I still haven’t got over the first one … traumatized … so she wanted a horror movie, I’m like please there isn’t such thing as horror, let’s go to an action movie, I really wanted to see Iron Man, but the cinema was full and we have to go to the horror ‘Boggeyman 2’, horror as in WTH is that … nothing, I thought in the end it was going to be some kind of a comedy. Really lame? Instead of running away of that lame masked sick bastard run towards him and he’ll run away!!! That’s how stupid the film was … I remember that last movie I was terrified from was ‘Freddy Krueger’ as a kid in primary school, how old was I then. Now when I see it again, I can’t see why was I afraid …
The last one is ‘The host’, I think it is a Korean movie about a beast that emerges from the river and starts eating up. I didn’t mind the beginning, but as the movie went on … WOW that was a great pick. I didn’t expect it to be like that. It was refreshing. It is a weird mixture of horror, comedy, tragedy, and unexpected ending. I liked it a lot and a lot better because we watched on the wide cinema screen. I think that made the experience the much more entertaining. I do recommend this one. It was awesome and the some scenes were pretty damn funny, I was leaning on my sister laughing hard and clapping. When I went home, we both were still laughing when remembering it
I think having a half price day in the cinema and in a weekday is a good idea, kills the routine and you save money and even if the movie turns out to be bad, well never mind at least I had my popcorn or nachos

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