Decisions, if only one can make them for you! Or imagine if you have the possibility of seeing the outcome of each decision and you take your pick then

What does it mean when one is stubborn, it is really hard for me to ask for help, for example, I’ll be dying on the floor and still think I can manage on my own! And if only certain people can help me and I don’t like asking them for anything, I would rather die! that is how sick I am!!

But I believe I can justify this in me by saying because I am a big sister, I am always more comfortable giving help then asking for it, does that make sense ?? I’d like to think so …

I don’t know why I always take the hard road, does it have something to do with achievement or satisfaction or simply stupid, I’m not sure

A few days back I made a decision and when it is that fresh and raw I only see my point of view on it, I really don’t want to hear any one’s elses’ intake, especially the ones I don’t ask for their opinions

Each action and scenario that happens within that period, I see it as Allah trying to send me a message and I am more convinced and I pray “isti’7ara” and wait. One good thing is no matter how passionate I feel about what I decided, I don’t take the action immediately, I wait for it to simmer and see if I have a change of heart

Apparently … I am going through that … a change of heart … because I am reconsidering the whole thing because one of the least-opinion-I-care-about people just gave me their intake !!!

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