How do you judge people?

With time, for me that is, I judge at first encounter and gradually build on that. My first instincts about a person maybe correct or not. But each meeting, conversation, incident help shape up that person. So it can totally change your perspective. Sometimes I begin to think highly of a person and discover they’re not worth the hype other times I discover what a great person standing in front of me and how thankful that I’ve met them

As for yourself, how do others see you?

Speaking for myself, I don’t make a first good impression and perhaps not even a second. With me, the person I project to be at first, isn’t really who I am. I need a while for others to get to know me

There is a whole science build on studying behaviours and gestures that tell who the person in front of you really is. The question is, do they work all the time? I believe no matter what your experiences are in life, they can only take you so far. You are bound to run into something different, so even if you see a familiar pattern, that doesn’t mean “been there, done that”, I know what this person is all about!

How can you judge a person by their behaviours in one environment? People can act differently around work, family, friends. They act differently based on their emotions, sad, happy. You can’t figure out a whole person just because you see them at work!!!

Someone who doesn’t work, doesn’t know what the hell they’re doing, stupid maybe, nervous, not serious, snitch, gossip, social retard, snob, etc. Some of the many things I’ve been sentenced to

I guess you can pick out the single thing that is absolutely true!

As I was driving back home, this thought came to mind. FOREVER.

It is a scary concept! I was thinking about the after life and how one can spend forever in heaven or hell. Both ways scary, although the last notion blows the scary part out of proportion and gives it a whole new meaning that I believe I only can comprehend if seen by one own eyes and felt by own skin -insha’Allah not-

I would summon that feeling, forever, when will it end, never, so it will go on and on and on and then what??

Although we complain that life is short or how painful it is to loose someone, knowing it’ll all end someday, gives some kind of closure

I guess this is a bit too big for human beings to muster. Normal minds in a normal world. I mean look at the universe and how our world is so small compared to it. How many life times it’ll take to really understand it or discover a portion of it. Assuming you can actually fall in space, since there is no gravity, and breathe while you’re at it, how long will it last, orbiting the vast darkness, never ending magnificence? Will it ever cease fascinating us? How long will it take, forever?

Sometimes I wonder, what’ll it be like if I went to heaven? More importantly, what will I do? Some of my questions: Will I live the past and future. Will I have my earthly memory? Do I choose my existence?

I think if you get to choose your forever, you’d rather spend it in a perfect world than in an imperfect one

All the coffee-holics in the world … put your hands up!!

The hugest headache ever -crying- when will I ever learn to quit this damn delicious dark sweet aroma beverage! HELL, I even drink this damn thing even if tastes like dirt, just because “malee khilq” eat and this keeps me going

I did quit it once, I went cold turkey -is this the proper term-, so I guess Ramadan is a chance to do it all over again and learn from my mistakes

Tears are voluntarily springing out of my eyes everytime I move my head around. My head is this gigantic ball of messed up hormones or signals searching for that caffeine drug, and the search is inflicting pain

I wake up in the morning and I need time to process before eating breakfast, then I don’t have time, so I start my journey through cups and cups of caffeine enriched drinks

Probably I need a week before getting over this, but I need to remember this discomfort next time I start going down this road again

Ramadan is here again, masha’Allah how time flies by so fast, it seems last year’s has just finished!

The difference now is that the weather is getting hotter and hotter by the year. So now it is more humid, hot and the “iftar” time is delayed than last year’s.

Of course people tend to work more on the religious aspect of their lives, so it’s up to one’s self to decide how to go about this. I am going to list other aspects

One of the main parts of Ramadan is “so7oor” the meal before you fast. It is surprising that most people have that before the sleep, well in my family we wake up before the “fajer” prayer, well not all family members, and eat and I like it this way. I tend to go buy these little cornflakes packages to have them on “so7oor”, or toast, “ ‘7oboz ergag” with laban and sometimes my little brothers order McDonald to eat it as “so7oor”, how they manage that I don’t know!!

TV, the best thing that I have done along time ago is quit watching TV all together, “aslan” I don’t watch TV that much, all the movies and series I need I buy or download. So I believe I’m not watching this year either. We’ll have to wait and see how “المسلسلات راح تحفتنا هالسنة” !!

Another thing was going walking in “mishref”, the weather was nice and after we would go to their co-op to get my cornflakes packages. The good thing about this “mamsha”, is you see people walking so you are not alone in a creepy one like the one in front of our house and it is long and has this water sprinklers installed which I walk under everytime I pass them by and the water coolers along the way “امدلعينهم”. I also go walking on the sea side now and then, it’s kinda dark and you need someone with you, some “mamshas” you can’t go alone, but I believe this year I’ll stick to ours

I know this month will fly by so quickly and I will try to make the most of it. Till the eid time when my brothers come and remind me:

“بنروح نتريق بماكدونالدز باجر”

Good old familia tradition!!!

“Mubarak 3alakom El-Shahar”