Couldn’t sleep after fajer prayer so I waited till about 7.30 AM and went off for some coffee

YAY .. toffee nut latte is back! Grabbed a grande to go and headed back home

Just discovered not only did I need a massage but my Lucy too ;p She sat silently and motionless on my lap with her eyes shut as I stroked her and now she is peacefully laying on my bed

I always forget that the first day of the weekend is Friday. I was planning to go to Jarir around 10 AM to get another powerline adapter to extend our network to the dewaniya, I don’t like the wireless approach, I always end up with headaches if I sit close to the access point. So I guess I need to postpone the trip

Some alone time does amazing things to the anger level. All the anger recedes when I escape to my little room laying in bed watching episodes on my laptop

I need to plan a mini vacation before the end of the year. Maybe a week or two

Me LOVING the weather. Even if it is still somehow hot. I like that in the early morning hours I can open my window and listen to sweet music or late at night when the sun cools down a bit

I have discovered many techniques to calm myself. One of them wake up early in the morning less tense and put on some ‘easy 92.5′ ;P on the radio. Any upbeat music only charges me more and if there is any bit of negative energy ohhh it boosts up -no need for that-

Never wait for bad things, because they’ll come around eventually. If you were having a good time for so long, don’t feel guilty and enjoy it

If you see darkness lurking around the corner try to run the other direction and not towards it no matter how peaceful and familiar it is to one’s self

Just trying to voice out some silly advice to myself. Will I follow … ??

One of my “me time” is driving with my music on. Sometimes I become somewhat reckless when they put on a list of songs that just do it for me!

My foot automatically pushes harder on the gas pedal and my shoulders start shaking left and right, my fingers start snapping away and my awful singing along start!! I occasionally shake the head as well

Back to work in the afternoon and guess what’s on the radio, one of my favourite beats “Here I Go Again – Mario”

Here I go again shaking as I’m writing this post ;D Enjoy

You’re waiting at a traffic light and soon as it turns green, some people honk! Wait they aren’t even in the front rows!!

ya3nee bis-millah, relax!!

What is going on their minds, are they so tensed that they actually believe that no one is paying attention to the traffic light except themselves. OK, what about benefit of the doubt, give the first car at least two seconds before pounding that horn and if they didn’t move then pound away

Is it their GOD given task? There ultimate purpose in life? What if, hypothetically, one day they stand at a traffic light and as soon as that beautiful green light emits … they wait for the cars to actually move! before deciding to take nerve wrecking action. I wonder what will happen to those kind of people if they weren’t allowed to drive??

Scientifically speaking, you can’t go from 0 KM speed to 20 KM speed in zero seconds, it needs times even if it is fractions of a second, then you have to add up the number of cars infront of you before you can actually move! We all love to disappear when that traffic lights goes green and reach our destination but patience is a virtue … this gives one the opportunity to practice just that

Change, do we all change into the individuals we want or aspire to be? Are we aware of these changes and most importantly can we control the changes?

I take a look at myself across the years and see how I evolved and the circumstances that help shape the person I am today

One thing for sure, I have this person lurking inside of me, that’s always there I think and it’s not a nice one. It’s nasty, mean, awful, inconsiderate and selfish. I try to keep it at bay

Everytime, I want to scream, pull someone’s hair, kick their ass, shout or simply give them the finger … I bury it inside and keep going

At work, all I see is nastiness … all around me and wonder do they actually like waking up in the morning and coming here for what? schemes and plots!! Is it worth it?

And I find myself being pulled into their game, into this whirlwind against my will and all I can do is stand quiet. I don’t know what to say or do

Change… I’m beginning to question my values and beliefs, that is the earthly ones. Is it wise to always do the right thing and tell the truth? Is it worth it to still follow the straight path, it’s so hard and letting go is so easy

I find myself, starting to do exactly the same behaviour I used to criticize? How can I appall an action I just did!! double standards … and ofcourse this nasty conscious of mine kicks in, tormenting me!

I believe this is where my nightmares come from, all the ugliness that is out there and I encounter finds a sweet spot with the little devil within me and comes pouring out of my unconscious mind at night because it’s the only time it can get out!! While I’m helpless and with no power to stop it

What do people do, if some place or someone is changing them into people they don’t like to be?

The never ending battle between good and evil

Thoughts racing through my tired hungry mind and body, I need to sleep

Why is it when you’re shocked by other people’s behaviour and the way they act, they always say because you’re a good person ??

So is it normal NOW for people to betray each other, disrespect one another, always put themselves first and disregard other’s feelings ?

Common decency should be built-in a human being, so if someone crosses that line we shouldn’t say well this is the norm now, one should drag that person to their parents’ house to be raised properly again!

Some people should be ashamed of what they do and how they treat other people, yet you find that you’re the one being accused of not blending in, too sensitive and taking everything personal

What you should be doing is planning a counter attack!! How to humiliate that person for example. That’s considered being a composed confident person!!!

OK, what about being the better person? The normal thing is for someone to NOT wish harm to others and respect who are older. Strangely if you think that, then you’re a good person, WTH, so if I inflict pain to others and diss elders than I’m a normal person and not a bad person who needs to attend moral school???

When will the time come and I confidently say, I’ve seen it all, you can’t shock me into being speechless anymore ???

Compliments, don’t like them most of the time

Because the moment they are said

I prove them wrong!

So save me the agony of making a complete fool out of myself and don’t think them out loud!