Just Thoughts

One of the reasons I didn’t go into software/web development, is I can never shut my brain down when I’m coding! I slept with a notepad next to my head, I’d sometimes wake up in the middle of the night with a solution or an idea, write it down and go back to sleep, or try to!

I think I have, Obsessive Compulsive Programming disorder! I am an obsessive compulsive programmer.

If I’m programming and I have to go to sleep now, I’d loop for sometime without exiting! I’d set it in my head that I need to sleep, but the action is not carried out, until I’ve exhausted all possible options to solve a problem indefinitely! Even if I convinced myself to continue tomorrow and by the time I am getting ready for bed till the time I’m actually in it, there is a high possibility that I want to do one more thing before going to sleep, it won’t take long! I end up in bed with my laptop.

The best way is to just pass out as soon as my head hits the pillow, because it’s a perfect opportunity in the quiet darkness for OCP thoughts to start circling my mind and I’m impatient I have to try things right away and if it doesn’t work out, damn, what’s the problem and if it works out … YIPIEEE what to do next! Endless loop …

So until I go to sleep, I blog or read to keep my mind off things!