April is ending already! It is almost mid of the year and by the time I get my head around this another new year is just around the corner!!!

How time flies by, no matter how often I say this and believe in it, I’m still amazed of how fast time goes by.

I’m almost done here, half the way crossed, it seems like yesterday I got on that plane, sometimes I feel I’m just on vacation off of my old job!

I’m already planning the end of something I yet need to begin!!!

I wonder and ask myself, how do people know they are satisfied? How do people know they have found what they are looking for? How do people make the decision to settle down ?

And this debating and arguing about this life and the afterlife begins within me with the same conclusion, I need to find a freaking balance!

I discussed this with my friend: Do you think one lifetime is enough?

What if GOD gave us several lifetimes, that was my argument.

Then my friend added, What if GOD gave us several lifetimes with the knowledge of the previous life when going into the second!

How many times has this crossed your mind, if only what I know NOW I knew back THEN.

Some may argue well that’s the beauty of life and I agree, I’m totally with the “most valuable lessons you learn are from LIFE”, by living it out. It’d be rather boring and pointless to come into this life with preloaded data about it.

But imagine if we had three life times, I’d live the first one way, the second another way and on the third, I’d either live it out different or choose from the first two!

Life is funny, it is not yours alone to bend and twist and guide as you please. Many factors come into it, the lives of those around you! So sometimes you delay a decision or don’t carry it out, because of those around you. And sometimes you make a decision because of those around you.

Life would be simpler with a manual, each child born with a manual or a script for their perfect role and place, they do not have to search and wonder, it is a funny thought, but I guess that way life will be utterly boring and unchallenging and life expectancy will dramatically drop and humans will seize to exist shortly after they are created!!

I wonder what my future older self -اذا الله أحياني-, will think of my now self.