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Thoughts on Islam
Posted by Bloggylife in Islam, thoughts on August 31, 2010
“A Kuwaiti, a Saudi and one from Qatar”.
I knew what I’m about to hear was not good at all.
That’s how the conversation with the bus driver started as we were waiting at the first stop.
I didn’t hold my breath for what’s about to come next. Because by now I’m used to it, it has become a familiar pattern. Not a pattern for Muslims, but the pattern of what Non-Muslims remember about Muslims.
“He started drinking beer and I told him are you supposed to do that!! and he replied well it is different I’m in UK now”
WTH! This is a new religion all together. A religion that is bounded by geographical location apparently.
I for one do have a change in behaviour when I’m abroad, less self concious and more out going, I can put on my trainings and go for a run and not have to deal with stupid remarks and comments.
But that is an extreme …
That dude should’ve said: “Well it’s not allowed but I’m an ignorant self centred dumb ass who doesn’t know the first thing about Islam, so please consider this my doing and not a reflection of my religion”.
People remember the ODD and they also remember what they like to believe!
Down the corridor, there are a group of Muslim guys, who drink and laugh like maniacs at night and cook and eat in the mornings of Ramadan.
As a person who’s aware of what Islam is, I know they are acting out on their own accord.
To outsiders who have a negative view about Islam, it’s a rebellious act against a dark religion which oppresses the youth and starves them out of food and water forbidding them from enjoying life.
To outsiders who have a positive view about Islam, it’s just boys drinking and eating and it has nothing to do with Islam.
I met a girl a few days ago, she’s just embraced Islam, it was so beautiful how she summed up deciding to become a Muslim “AHA, now it makes sense”.
I wished I can see through her eyes and feel what she is feeling and then I thought to myself, maybe I need a journey of my own, a journey to rediscover Islam.
Sleepless Thoughts
Posted by Bloggylife in thoughts on July 19, 2010
Is it true?
Prayers are rarely answered?
Has GOD taken a step back?
Or have we?
Has GOD stopped giving?
Or have we quit appreciating?
Am I crossing the line, in voicing out my thoughts!
I wonder why GOD has not quit on us already. Why the world has not collapsed. Why we don’t burst into flames.
Not because we don’t pray, we don’t believe, we don’t thank …
We destroy, we kill each other with words, we stomp and shout, wipe it all off and start again. It’s the simple things.
We brush off the little things that slowly penetrate solid structures and nibble away, bringing it all down piece by piece!
I ask why, when I’m down and under, when I’m hurting …
Where are you, as I rest my forehead, on my hands and knees, and pray … please don’t leave me …
Asking the very question GOD can ask!!!
Where are you?
Where were you?
When I’m high and above, dazed in happiness, I smile, I stretch and laugh, I giggle, I go higher and higher, until in the background I remember, it comes to me, OH yes Thank You!
Taking many things for granted …
Still I wonder … wait … stop …
I dare not voice my objections, in fear of them becoming my excuses, my arguments …
Prayers are answered, we just don’t pay attention.
We look for them in what we ask … Not in what we have …
We look for them in moments of despair … Not in moments of peace …
We look for them when we are on our knees … Not when standing tall …
They are answered … we just stopped believing … please forgive me.
Happy Thoughts
Posted by Bloggylife in thoughts on July 18, 2010
Don’t just walk
Skip once in a while 
Leqafa Thoughts
Posted by Bloggylife in UK, personal, thoughts on June 10, 2010
I know “leqafa” is not my default mode, because I am aware of myself when I am being a “malqoofa” 
So one of my neighbours are a Chinese couple or that’s what I thought! I actually didn’t put things together until later, I see her with a guy that I thought was the one living next door, turns out it is a different guy. So maybe they are not a couple, maybe they’re just brother and sister
You can never understand Chinese couple they aren’t as intimate as their English counterparts! They don’t hold hands for example. My colleague has a picture of himself posing next to his girlfriend, it seems like they were forced under gunpoint!! Standing straight, looking into the camera direct, no smiles, eshda3wa
Now I can recognize my pre-couple now-siblings duo, they do not sit next to each other in class that is in the times I’ve seen them. In the cafeteria, I see her eating with a group and then as I’m heading out I see him eating with another group! They come after me in the bus, infront of me, he sits right of the aisle and she left of the aisle, why not together ???
As I’m cleaning my room, I see them walking outside, hand-in-hand, hmmmm, that doesn’t seem like a brother and sister Ohhh, well maybe they are a couple who are sick of each other, they do not have to sit together in uni, eat together, walk together … still not sure, are they a couple or not ???
Maybe they’re just living together ??? Is he gay 3ad she is a beautiful girl, he’s grumpy and always smoking outside hehehehe
Today I see her in the bus and we talk, I’m think should I ask the question, “Is that your boyfriend, friend, or brother ?” But didn’t
Later I head out again and as I was going up to the bus stop, they were coming down, his hands around her, I smile ready to say HI, as soon as she sees me, she elbows him and shrugs off his hands and they seperate, I walk by and we exchange “Hello’s”.
Did they do that because they’ve seen me “Basich leqafa” 
But life is putting them in my way, I’m not seeking it, it just happens infront of me and then I think “OK, where did we last left off, YUP them sitting apart”, or as my latest update, them springing away from of each other when they saw me, or maybe it’s just my imagination hehehehe I feel wicked when I’m piecing and noticing things that are not of my god damn business
Simple Thoughts
Posted by Bloggylife in thoughts on May 21, 2010
In the security lecture the instructor was talking about Kerberos security protocol. The name he explained came from the three headed dog, Cerberus, that guards the gates of Hades or the under world in the Greek mythology.
He was surprised why the under world needed to be guarded, who in their right mind would enter! He argued.
Simple, the three headed dog is not there to prevent people from entering as much as preventing people from leaving! That to me is a simpler explanation
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Reasoning Thoughts
Posted by Bloggylife in thoughts on May 19, 2010
Envy!
You know how you don’t praise certain people and anything remotely linked to them because to them the bottom line for everything that is “wrong” and goes “wrong” is “envy”!
The type that obsessively thinks about “enviousness”, not a thorn in their hands, a paper cut, a torn dress, a failed exam, an accident, can be logically explained.
I’m not saying “envy” doesn’t exist, it does, it is mentioned in the Quran and A7adeeth, but does it have to be the first conclusion to all the wrongs?
Failed exam … maybe you didn’t study well, that’s one explanation …
Car accident … reckless driving or bad luck!
Torn dress … perhaps it was too long!
Another thing, say a person who’s always concerned about others envying them and they wear a new cool sunglasses, people most likely are going to comment and praise thinking perhaps it is a nice thing to say and it’ll make that person happy, but all that person is thinking about is how the evil force will materialize and suddenly while they are deeply engrossed in their thoughts they bump into a wall and break their precious sunglasses … AHA, I knew it!!!
Here is a thought, when you continuously think about something, it’ll happen. Your being will unconsciously carry it out. OH it’s a new car, people saw it, I’m going to have an accident, I’m going to have an accident, I’m going to have an accident, eventually you will!!!
Or even believe that they are envied over the most trivial and ridiculous un-enviable possessions!
Some will go as far as negating the “masha’Allah, Allah yebarik” that is usually accompanied with praising and accusing the individual of insincere wishes!
“الحسد موجود” and I think we all know someone who had to deal with its aftermath.
Our religion provided remedies to envy, for example, by citing Quran or dooá.
It is easier said than done or achieved … “القناعه” …
If everyone was content they won’t envy others and moreover won’t think others are envying them because everyone is happily content with what GOD gave them
Time Travel
Posted by Bloggylife in thoughts on May 16, 2010
Discussing a topic isn’t always about its feasibility. Sometimes it’s about what will you do if it were possible.
Time travel is always an interesting topic, three factors always in the equation of moving, time, distance and speed. Always positive indicating to the next point in the near present or future time.
Time travel, is it about time in the past, or long distances to chase past snapshots in space to relive them or maybe just observe them, this requires incredible high speeds, will there be another variable concerned with space.
The most important question is, where would you travel?
The first thing that popped in my mind is the dinosaur age. I don’t why, but that era is amazing, I just want to witness the creatures, the earth back then, no humans, need to verify that, maybe even stick around to witness the beginning of the human race, I’d just be an observer, I will not alter history as we know it now, I may even fast forward all of earth years see how it looks, how it progressed, coming from the future I’d have an advantage, I’d take all my equipment for protection, don’t want to be at a disadvantage with the dinosaurs! All my gadgets will be solar powered I’d have a “Generating power for dummies” book I need to stop myself here or I’d just drift planning the whole thing for days 
Weather Thoughts
Posted by Bloggylife in funny, thoughts on May 13, 2010
Do you have your heater ON?
HAHAHAHAHA
!!!!
That wasn’t a joke ??? 0_0
Nostalgia Thoughts
Posted by Bloggylife in personal, thoughts on May 9, 2010
Nostalgia … everyone supposedly will end up feeling … I’m still waiting!
This feeling is so idolised that any other feeling but … is outrageous.
Maybe it is blocked behind thick walls of stubbornness, emotional strength or control! Or maybe it needs more time to get through! Maybe it is chained down by logical thinking, why release it when I know I’ll be back! Can it be denial?
I don’t think that matters, we all don’t have the same emotional map.
I don’t associate yearning with love … well not always …
See when you end up in a living standards that is less than what you are used to, you miss the clean air, the nice weather, the running water, the safe house, the comfy bed, you miss what you are familiar with, what you are used to …
Or maybe whatever you miss is associated with happy memories, childhood, motherly love, innocence …
There is a big difference when you long out of love or familiarisation.
I wonder how I’ll feel if I were put on an island alone, see I don’t think loneliness, I think peace! I guess because in my mind eventually we’ll all die. Another positive outlook, this way I don’t do wrong by anybody so that will hopefully bring my sins down.
At the end of the day, I know if it were up to me, I’d die alone and it’ll take days for someone to discover my stinking body. That’s how I came up with an idea (pinglivingbeings.com, areyoudeadyet.com), a simple web service, subscribers need to check-in daily via SMS, email, ping, twitter, with all the apps, devices and platforms out there, it’s very difficult to stay offline for a day unless you want to or you don’t have a choice, if a day passes without a person checking in, a warning is flagged and depending on your subscription, cops and/or ambulance is sent to your place!
This selfish life style I can not let go of, but I know myself, I’m kidding myself … this isn’t me. Only a small part of my life is solely mine but the rest is for those I love around me, and I’m not only talking about my family, but friends too, in fact a friend long gone, still has a part that I gave away.
Me: You are going to drive soon, be careful, wear your seat belt and no speeding and if I hear otherwise, I’ll take the next plane to just kick your ass and be back, you hear me!
Bro: What! You’re miles away and still lecturing me!!
Me: Don’t make me come!!!
Bro: OK OK
Me:
Life is easier when you only have to take care and worry about yourself. It is harder as your circle gets bigger.
I can go on living in which ever form it is, I’m not sure if this is a scary or comforting thought … nevertheless …
The people in my life, make the quality of my life better, they bring colour to my standalone grey existence. I always knew people around me will move on and they do, that is why I did not think I’ll be missed
Some keep my suicidal dark tendencies at bay others drive me over the edge. In this life you can not be selective or I’d be the first in line eliminating those blocking the warm sunshine
It is a choice for me, I know where I want to be “بحلوها و مرها” and not just for my own sake
My baby sister, my crazy big brother, my carefree living for the moment lil bro, my two kiddie bros that I can tease about seeing their butts as babies My cute adorable nieces.
It feels I broke from my daily soap opera and got my own show and now they are airing commercials, she’ll be back to the original series, so be ready
I’m loving her.
Dear MS Excel
Posted by Bloggylife in Applications, thoughts on May 2, 2010
YOU SUCK! Without doing any processing of any data you simply crash and with the stupid piece of %$& that is under you, Vista kicked out from the very bottoms of burning hell with arms wide open, it even makes you worse!
I’m so used to that damn box popping up, I suspect it is a built-in feature. What’s worse than you crashing with a simple open command of a KB size data only file, is the freaking “checking for a solution”, just like a headless chicken running around! The cancel button! What is the use of cancelling an endless result-less operation when it’ll automatically start again!
“Well, something crashed, I think! It’s not new, it happened before, I searched some knowledge base out there or did I just order pizza, hmmm, OH you want to cancel, oppppps, I need to find something don’t I and it’s not pizza, well I better give it another try, you don’t have to approve it, here we go again, la la la … trum trum trum … “
You know WHY you couldn’t find something out there, because it negates the very reason you were developed for!
“Hello, I couldn’t open a file. Really ??? Am I supposed to open xls files!!! Weird!!! I’m not sure how! Should I just have another go around the block … nothing out there, well you can’t say I haven’t tried, I even saved a copy for data recovery“
WHY oh WHY, there were no changes on the file, it didn’t even open! Why do I have 3 copies of the same file!!! It is useless to have 3 copies of the same file with different timestamps!
“ohhh, I forgot, Did you find this information useful “
^%$^ ^%$^& &*^%$ !!!!
So many features that “supposedly” make up excel, if I were Excel developers, I’d strip it down to the basic functions! I don’t think the people who gave birth to excel in Satan Villa, use it as they market it and level out its amazing features!
xlsx: useless wrapped in x’s
xls: xtracting life slowly!
I use MS office applications sometimes because of the format, and I don’t mean file extension, Office Org can open MS office, but the format of a template gets messed up. If you are writing according to a specific organisation format, they often pass you a template and it doesn’t work quite well with other applications.
Freaking thing got my ulcers kicking in!
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